3.4 - No title III

Yesterday I had nothing to do so I took the bus to a place called Torslanda (swedish wikipedia), I had never been there before and I was kinda curious about the place. When I was there I saw this big supermarket called Maxi ICA (or ICA Maxi as I and many others call it), and with nothing better to do I went inside to get a look at it and to research if it's a place I could think of working at.

While walking around inside that store I see this young woman, and BAM! it hits me, it's a girl I used to work with. A girl I had a crush on too...

I wasn't sure in the beginning if it was her or not, but the more I looked, more sure I was. I wanted to go up to her but I didn't know what to say and I wasn't 100% sure it was her because now when I saw her she had kid in the trolley and she was pregnant. When we used to work togheter she was (I think) around 19-22, she was studying and lived with her boyfriend and no kids in sight.

It was about 5 years since I left that job, to see her and to see she had kids now came as a shock to me, and it got me thinking about my own life and where life had got me in these years.

What I had accomplished since i left that job:

* Got another job, stayed there for about 6 months
* Another job again, stayed there for almost 3 years
* Met a girl and we almost stayed togheter for over 2 year
* Another job once again, been here for soon 3 years.

I shouldn't compare myself to her, different ppl. choose different paths in life, but still i can't help it. I guess all people do the same some time in their life.

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This day didn't start out good. Last night I dreamt I was at a persons funderal (this person is very close to me), in my dream she had died from a terrorist bombing.

After a while I woke up, and I tried to go back to sleep, but it was to no use. I couldn't since I had images spinning in my head from my dream, the time we used to be togheter and images from the time when I had my Kahloolie Kathan here with me.

To say the least it wasn't fun to wake up all alone in a empty apartment with all these images spinning in my head...

I thought of staying home today, but then I thought that if I do that I would only be reminded of her and it be too hard on me, and if I go to work I hopefully can concentrate on something else.

But now that I am at work I feel even worser...

Hopefully this day will change for the better.

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