I have been spending a little time on reading old posts I made on this blog. It was fun to read, I think I'll spend some more time soon reading them all.
I kind of felt like going back in time...
And I also found some links to some blogs I used to read but lost track of...
Oh crap...look a the time (right now 21:49) and I still haven't ate dinner nor made lunch for tomorrow. Well I only need to cook some pasta and it's finished. ;-)
Peace out y'all!
Btw. Who are you people reading my blog?
How did you end up here?
Yes I see that people are coming here and reads (i guess) this since I have the counter and I can see some statistics on a site I've set up.
So please leave a message telling me who you are, would be fun.
When I was at the tram today on my way to work someone had carved the words "Jag vill spela roll" (in English: "I want to matter") on one of the windows. I was thinking about it if the person who carved that just did it for fun or if he/she did it because he/she is feeling bad (mental health)...
I wanted to take a picture of it, but I haven't bought my new mobile phone yet and on the phone I have now there isn't a camera (yeah, I know it sucks).
But then again, it was carved on a window so it could have been kinda hard to get a good photo of it.
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I mentioned earlier I have decided to buy a new mobile phone. This time I've set sails on the new SonyEricsson K810.
I haven't decided if I should go with a subscription for 12 months or not. Sure in the end it will be cheaper if I decide to buy it without any subscriptions, but then I have to pay around 3200,- SEK ~ 344,- EUR ~ 461,- USD.
What is wrong with the phone I've got now?
* Screen: When I'm in the sun I almost can't see anything on the screen. (Yes I have tried to adjust the screen colours.)
* No camera: No camera, no "Kodak moments photos". I mean when I'm out in town or where ever i see something special (mostly special graffiti and other street art paintings) that I want to take a photo of.
* T9: The "smart" alphabet system that should help out when writing a SMS. Well I don't find it that effective on the Nokia phone I've got...problaby It's because I'm so used to having SonyEricsson's version and that I feel lost with Nokias...
* Buttons: The buttons on the phone can be really irritating, especially the ring button around the center button.
So, yeah I'm bying a new phone.
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When I got home today I saw that I've got my paycheck so...
I'M IN THE MONEY
I GOT SOME MONEY
Wohoo!!
Ha ha ha...
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Yesterday I had nothing to do so I took the bus to a place called Torslanda (swedish wikipedia), I had never been there before and I was kinda curious about the place. When I was there I saw this big supermarket called Maxi ICA (or ICA Maxi as I and many others call it), and with nothing better to do I went inside to get a look at it and to research if it's a place I could think of working at.
While walking around inside that store I see this young woman, and BAM! it hits me, it's a girl I used to work with. A girl I had a crush on too...
I wasn't sure in the beginning if it was her or not, but the more I looked, more sure I was. I wanted to go up to her but I didn't know what to say and I wasn't 100% sure it was her because now when I saw her she had kid in the trolley and she was pregnant. When we used to work togheter she was (I think) around 19-22, she was studying and lived with her boyfriend and no kids in sight.
It was about 5 years since I left that job, to see her and to see she had kids now came as a shock to me, and it got me thinking about my own life and where life had got me in these years.
What I had accomplished since i left that job:
* Got another job, stayed there for about 6 months
* Another job again, stayed there for almost 3 years
* Met a girl and we almost stayed togheter for over 2 year
* Another job once again, been here for soon 3 years.
I shouldn't compare myself to her, different ppl. choose different paths in life, but still i can't help it. I guess all people do the same some time in their life.
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This day didn't start out good. Last night I dreamt I was at a persons funderal (this person is very close to me), in my dream she had died from a terrorist bombing.
After a while I woke up, and I tried to go back to sleep, but it was to no use. I couldn't since I had images spinning in my head from my dream, the time we used to be togheter and images from the time when I had my Kahloolie Kathan here with me.
To say the least it wasn't fun to wake up all alone in a empty apartment with all these images spinning in my head...
I thought of staying home today, but then I thought that if I do that I would only be reminded of her and it be too hard on me, and if I go to work I hopefully can concentrate on something else.
But now that I am at work I feel even worser...
Hopefully this day will change for the better.
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Last night I had another weird dream again...this time i dreamt that I for some unknown reason went to a place where women sell sex for money (the word "prostitute" don't feel right to use since I got the feeling they had more class).
I started talking to a girl that worked over there and I felt she was really special and after a while we started talking about dating. She wasn't really up for it in the beginning so I came back to talk to her again and after some time she agreed and after a while we became a couple.
But some of her "friends" (?) (her "boss" and his goons maybe? I don't know who they were), weren't that happy about it and started chasing me when they saw me. In my dream I was living in Gothenburg (as I do in real life) but this Gothenburg looked different, more dirty and darker...but maybe it was because I was in those parts of the town.
Every time they chased me I managed to get away, and every time I got to spend time with my girlfriend (in the dream that is) I was happy.
I remember her as really beautiful. The strongest image I have of her was when I talked to her the first time. She had long brown (maybe dark red hair), a black dress, she maybe had a black corset and black high heeled shoes (may have been boots).
I hope to be able to return to her...
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But I can't help wondering what this dream means? It has been over 1½ years since me and my e.x. girlfriend broke up, I was dating a girl a while ago but nothing happened there. And now this girl at work has caught me in her vision, and last Friday I asked her out but she had plans, so we'll see if that will lead to anything. I sure hope so.
That girl at work is really really beautiful, her eyes, her face...mmm...
Anyway, I hate to be single. Every day I dream of having a girlfriend...when I was with Daniela she wasn't only my girlfriend she was also my best friend. I felt for the first time that I could tell her ANYTHING. And that is the first time i felt I could tell anything to someone.
And of course I miss the love. You know, the kissing, hugging, to be near each other, in bed cosying...and of course I miss the sex. I haven't had sex with anyone since the break up...
It's not that I'm desperate to have sex, but yes I miss it a lot.
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I should go to bed, it's kinda late and as usual I have to get up and go to work. Tomorrow it's Friday so that's good.
I just wish I had some plans for the weekend...oh wait! I do have well...some kind of plan for Friday evening at least. Me and a friend are planning on going to see this Swedish pop (?) band called Detektivbyrån (in rough English: private detective bureau). I have never heard them before, but according to my friend they're supposed to be kinda good. I was first booked up for a underground party at a place called Bunkern, but then my friend said (Hey! Weren't we supposed to go to that bands show??) and i remembered something about saying something about going there...so no underground party for me this time.
I haven't been to Bunkern in a while now, and i miss it. The last time (at the first) was really fun, so have been looking forward to be able to go there again...but no such luck this time.
Oh well...maybe next time...?
OK, now i have gotten some weight off my chest and feel tired, so goodnight you people who are reading this blog, who ever you may be.
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nothing will ever be the same again
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she said I'm not over her yet
and she also said it feels akward to talk to me
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feeling like crap again
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just wanna get away
want to move
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just get away from it all
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leave it all behind and forget
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but i have no money
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nothing, nothing, nothing
will ever be the same again
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feeling like crap
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why
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Visage - Fade to grey
So yesterday I was at a live concert with Mr. Brant Bjork and The Bros and it was awesome (as the last two times I saw him). The only let down was that he didn't go on until really late, around 23.30 he went up on stage and did a kick ass concert until around 01.00 in the night.
When I got aout of the bar he played in I saw the tram to the city just had started from my station, and I knew it was gonna take a long while before a new one is gonna come...I was right, about 30 mins. until next one. I just wanted to get home and I needed "to do the number 1" (if you know what I mean), so nothing to do than just start walking into town...
In the end I was home and went to sleep around 02.30.
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"...and get stoned."
HELL YEAAAH!
Tonight I'm gonna see Brant Bjork live (!!!!) AAAAND I saw in the magazine Metro (the Swedish, Gothenburg edition) a note on the concert tonight that Alfredo Hernándéz is gonna be on the drums (!!!).
For you people that don't know him, he played drums on Kyuss "Welcome to Sky Valley", "...and the circus leaves town" and on Queens of the stone age's first album ("S/T").
That is really awesome! And what's even more cool is that Brant Bjork is signing his new album with the bros today (it's called "Somera Sol")!!
Now i have to get outta here and get the new album siiiigned by Mr. Bjork!!
WOHOOOO!!!
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Aah, Saturday...finally weekend.
I sat up pretty late last night working on to get the template to work as I want here on Blogger. When I went to sleep I forgot to turn off the alarm on the buzzer so the radio started at 05.40 (!!) and I snoozed it and a while later it started again, I was between sleep and awake so I didn't think about it so much so I snoozed again...only to wake up again a short while again but this time I finally managed to get my head together to turn it off...
But some time later someone called me on the phone, I got up and checked on the screen of the phone but only to find it said "Anonymous", and when I answered the fucker hanged up on me. By that time the clock was around 08.30 and my whole idea of getting some some sweet sleep on a Saturday morning was ruined, I was awake now and I knew I couldn't go back to sleep.
A short while after I got up the same moron called me again and I answered only to find the idiot hanging up on me again!!! I strongly thought of calling my phone provider to try to find out who the idiot is, but i calmed down and just turned off the phone...
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So, it's Saturday and what the hell am I gonna do today? I have absolutely no idea...think I'm gonna head down to the city to...well, I have no idea...
...crap...
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As you can see i finally changed the horrible background that i used to have, I also changed the template too. Took me a while (to say the least) to finally do it, but for some reason I made my mind up to change it tonight.
More changes might come, mostly small which you readers problaby won't notice...but we'll see what happens in the future. For now I am pleased with the new template I got here.
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