och nu helt plötsligt så är det så tyst. jag kände att jag höll på att bli galen.
jag visste inte vad jag skulle göra, vad jag skulle ta mig till.
det var enormt jobbigt.
och nu efter att det har gått 3 månader, så är det inte ensamheten som är knäckande, utan den är avsaknaden av sex. jag märker jag att jag börjar att glömma hur det känns att ha sex...tror jag iaf...
och det kommer att dröja ca. ytterligare 3 månader innan jag träffar Henne igen...
och sen efter det tar det 5 månader innan vi kan flytta ihop.
lately i've had problems watching a whole movie...i have been starting up a movie only to fall asleep or something else come up that i have to do and i shut it off thinking i will finish it later some day but i never do.
yesterday it happened again. i was watching "Fight Club" (for like the fourth time i think) and after a while i shut it off because the grrlfriend called me, and we talked for a while.
after a while i looked at the clock and noticed it was kinda late already and i have a early week this week (that means that i have to get up at like 06.00 in the morning), i knew that i wouldn't be able to watch the whole thing so i just shut it off thinking (again) that i will watch it later.
this weekend i helped my mom to move into her new house. and my brother was so kind enough to tell her that the place is haunted.
the house was previously owned by a old man and his wife that was said by my brother that she died in the bedroom. the possibility of that she actually died in the house i can believe, but the fact she is haunting the place i don't really believe.
note fyi: i believe that ghosts exists, but i never seen one. i have no idea how i would react if i would actually meet one.
my brother told me that the house was haunted before he told my mom and i asked him not to tell my mom that, but he just said "no, she must now what she has to deal with". and the thing with my mom is that she is very superstitious. she never allowed me to have a cactus when i was younger (and if i get one now she won't visit me), she NEVER leaves the keys on the table and so on...
therefore i thought that telling her that her newly bought house is haunted is very unnecessary and will just frighten her.
and it did.
i told my mom when we were alone that i didn't believe that the place was haunted at all, and she shouldn't believe my brother at all on this.
after we had dinner and the rest was outside to start moving in things again i was alone in the house i said "to the house" that i love my mom very much and i want her to be happy and this is her house now and the house should be nice to her.
i didn't tell my mom, my brother, my uncle or anyone else for that matter what i had said to the house, cause they will only think i am crazy or something.
when we were finished with moving in the stuff my mom said she didn't want to sleep in the sleeping room because it was full of boxes...the real reason as i see it was because she was still afraid. but on sunday i met up with her again and she said she had a dream that a woman had peeked in and said she was very much welcome to the house, and she seemed a bit happier.
maybe the place is haunted, and maybe the house listened to what i said...in any case i just hope the best for my mom now and i wish that she will be happy out there since this has been one of her dreams, to own a house again.
a while ago i put in Pearl Jam's album "Ten" in the mp3 player and re-discovered how great it is.
no wonder they got big at that time, that album kicks ass! i just wish i had known that earlier so i could have caught a concert with them. they haven't been to Sweden for years...sadly.
favorite song?? ooh, hard...hmm..."Jeremy", "Garden" is so good and "Even Flow" is just some of many good song there.
it's so cool to pick up an album you haven't listened to for a long time and re-discover what was so good about it.
but sometimes you discover that an album you listened to alot wasn't that good after all and you start to wonder why you listened to that band at all...
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