2.0

I was out on a date last week, and last night I had a dream I got 4 SMS messages. I check them and I see that one of them is from this girl i dated. I open it and all that it says is "Bad news! Call me!".

So I call her up to see what she meant, and she says she wanna cancel our next date because of ...here i didn't hear what she said...

I´m getting too worked up over this i know, but it was my first real date in over 5 years so isn't that kinda natural...?

. . . .

Damn, I have to find another job. This crappy place i´m working in now doesn't get me anywhere in life! All it does is it sucks my will to live out of me...well almost...it makes me very tired. Even the salary sucks. Sure i´m single now and i make it ok, but i´m glad i don´t have any kids to support cause I just wouldn't make it.

. . . .

I don´t know if i said it before but I bought a Nintendo DS Lite (NDSL) last year and I bought a so called passme device + M3 Perfect Lite (Micro SD) to be able to play homebrew and downloaded games.

2 days ago I got a hold of Final Fantasy VI Advance. My first thought was "finally it´s released!!". According to me and many more this is one of THE best RPG game of all time, sure the other Final Fantasy games was good, but it never reached up too FFVI.

I haven't got so much time to sit down and enjoy this little bundle of joy, but it seems that SquareEnix have done a good job. The graphics is just as wonderful and the music is just as good as i remembered, so so far everything seems to be in order...not that there should be any reason not to.

2 other games I hope to be re-released now is Chrono Trigger and Secret of Mana, after that I won´t need any new games for a very very long time.

I just read on Wikipedia on the article for Secret of Mana that the game was originally intended to come out to the SNES CD system, but since it was cancelled the game was to be released on cartridge instead, but due to it´s size the games graphics had to downgrade and as much as 40% of the original content was removed (!!).

Imagine Secret of Mana with 40% graphical upgrade...Yummy yum yum!

. . . .

I just sat and checked upcoming concerts and holy crap March is going to be an expensive month for me. So far i found:

Abramis Brama + Black Debbath - 2:nd of march

Nicola Sarcevic - 10:th of march

The Kristet Utseende (also called T.K.U.) - 16th of march

Abramis Brama and Black Debbath plays a kind of stoner rock, Nicola Sarcevic plays more soft rock/pop and The Kristet Utseende plays punk/rock.

T.K.U. i HAVE too see, i have seen them once before and it was gooood, Abramis Brama i have seen many years ago and they was also good but Nicola S. I am kinda unsure if I will be going, and Black Debbath i really wanna see...

Tomorrow I am going to see Cult of Luna live.

And hopefully Eagles of Death Metal on saturday.

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"Careful with what you´re wishing for
They´ll lead you down below

Careful with what you´re thinking of
Don´t want to see you at the end of a rope"

Khoma - "One of us must hang"

Aah, friday...

As usual i sat on my usual forums and checked if there was any interesting discussions going on or some juicy gossip about games/movies/music and other stuff.

After a while i stumble across a post where someone had posted a link for the musicvideo commercial for the game Cannon Fodder called "War has never been so much fun" (link to video is further down) and later some other person posted a link to a live version performed by the geekiest band i the world (according to themselves) Press Play On Tape (PPOT).


Links to the videos:

"War has never been this much fun" (original)

"War has never been this much fun" (PPOT´s live version)


I have just two bloody (ha ha, bloody) words to say about that live performance...

Bloody brilliant!!

or if you prefer

Fucking awesome!!

"War has never been so much fun
Talk to your buddy
Kill him with your gun
Let him lie in his uniform
Dying in the sun"

. . . .

And that´s all i had to say today...well, for now atleast.


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PS. To avoid idiot flamers that dont have a sense of humor;

i do not like war in real life.
i think war is one of the most horrible
things on earth.

i do not want to kill my buddies and
let them lie dying in a uniform in the sun.

...well, if its in a game its ok with me...

still dont get it?

well, no one asked you what you think anyway.

...ha ha ha...

DS.

Hiiidey hoo...

No, i´m not dead or anything like that.

It has been a while...to say the least. August the 4:th was my last post here.

Hmm, didn´t realise it´s been that long since i posted here...damn...

Well, i am very much alive...or alive at least. I suffer from heartache since me and Dani broke up in march, and i haven´t got really over it yet.

She meant so much too me and still do!! I we´ll get back togheter i dont know, but i hope so...


Well, tonight (saturday) i was out with a friend of mine and im kinda tired now so i´ll just post this message to you all...if there is anyone at all that still comes here to check if i have updated my blog.

Its a new year and i have some new ideas for this blog...ill see if i take them anywere.

Cheers mates, and the best of luck to you.


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i miss Israel...


lately i have been starting to think back to it more and more...especially when i am travelling to and from work, or to and from town. when i see cars that look a bit rundown or special looking buildings i start to think about it, and its hard to get out of those thoughts. it´s not that i want to forget it´s just that it sometimes hurts to remember. i think back to all that i and Dani and her friends have been doing when i was there, what i saw and felt. i know Israel isn´t the safest place to live right now, but i still miss the place.

maybe it´s because i have Dani there, and she´s the first girl i really loved. the first girlfriend i felt that i could tell anything too and that i could trust all the way. i had never felt that with any of my previous girlfriends.

. . . .

this night i had another of those wierd dreams...

this time i was in a house i had recently bought (!!), it had belonged to my mom but se sold it because she thought it was haunted (why i bought it in the first place i don´t know). my mom was going around helping me set up the curtains and unpacking my stuff. i really didn´t want to live there, and i certainly didn´t want to sleep there since i believed that it was haunted.

i asked my mom several times why i bought it and if i made a bad choice buying the house to begin with, but she didn´t answer.


that´s all i can remember. i often think of getting me a book that can help you "translate" your dreams, but you can never know if that what says in the book is what the dream is trying to tell you.
but at the same time it would be interesting to read...

. . . .

today the Gothenburg city festival start, this year it´s togheter with the EM (european championships). ALOT of ppl. are coming here and there´s gonna be some good artists too, i don´t care about the sports i go for the music. here´s a list of artists performing:

04 Aug

I´m from Barcelona (SWE)
Hello Saferide (SWE)
The Soundtrack of our lives (T.S.O.O.L.) (SWE)

05 Aug

The Hellacopters (SWE)
Backyard Babies (SWE)
Millencolin (SWE)

06 Aug

Eskobar (SWE)
Slagsmålsklubben (SWE)

07 Aug

No fun at all (SWE)
Blindside (SWE)
Satanic Surfers (SWE)

08 Aug

Arch Enemy (SWE/UK)
Nine (SWE)

09 Aug

Snook (SWE)
Technics Swedish DJ Championship (DJ-SM)
GBG Grime Bash:
- Max Peezay, Jammer & Ears (UK)
- Wiley & Scratchy (UK)
- Slix & Tinchy Stryder (UK)
- DJ Karnage (UK)
- NFL Kru - Slim, D-Chi & Double K (?)

10 Aug

The twilight singers feat. Greg Dulli & Mark Lanegan (US)

12 Aug

Looptroop (SWE)

(i underlined the bands i want to see the most)

i dont think i will make it to see all of them, i have a job to go to (yeah, it sucks i know) and i can´t be up all night. especially since i start out early next week.

... ah well ...

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just another day

i have been thinking many times of moving back to norrland (the upper parts of Sweden where i grew up) again since i miss it...but a couple of days ago i realised why i want to move up again, it´s because i miss the old days when i lived up there and was with my old friends and all that, but the thing is that even if move up again it won´t be the same.

some of my old friends has moved out of town, or got a family. so it just wont be the same anymore, sad but true. i often think back to the old days, when i lived up there in that small town...i often remember it as happy days, and i had many many good times up there, but i must not forget that i was unemployed and most of the time i didn´t had any money because of that and i was often depressed.

. . . .

so...saturday today, the clock is about 13.50 and the only plan i had has gone to the trashbin. i was thinking of putting in my mountain bike for service, but the store close at 14.00.

why didn´t i go then? well, to make a unneccesary long story short:

i woke up too late...

what?? you want the long story...oh...hmm, well ok, here goes:

it started with yesterday after i got home a friend of mine asked me if i wanted to come and see "Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead mans chest" and i got home around 01.30 and of course i got stuck infront of the computer again when i got home and didn´t got to bed until around 05.00. i had set the clock for about 10.40 but as always i forgot to turn the bloody alarm on.

*sigh*

so i woke up at around 12.40 instead...that wasn´t too bad since i needed to sleep. i had temporarily forgot about the plan i had for today so i sat down and checked my e-mail and stuff and then i remembered and i had to find out when the store closed for the day. i managed with Google´s help find the site of the store and saw that they close at 14.00...when i saw that the clock was around 13.20 already.


so what to do now?? i have no idea...i think of eating some breakfast since i´m getting very hungry here...

*makes some sandwiches*

aah, that´s better. and i now came up with what i´m gonna do now...clean the apartment. i really need to do it, boring yes. but i have to since no one else will.

. . . .

i have been looking for a new game to play...either on Windows or on PS2. i have been playing War Rock a while now, and i´m getting bored with it. i also started to play Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas again. that game is fun, but games these days have a hard time keeping my intrest up for more than 2-4 weeks of constant playing (well i do need to go to work and have other stuff to do, but you know what i mean). so i hope something cool hits the stores soon.

but one problem still exists if it´s for Windows...i can´t play those highly demanding games since my PC hasn´t been upgraded yet.


well, that´s it for this post. i´m gonna eat up the rest of my breakfast and then go and clean my apartment and maybe later play some GTA: SA.


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Diamonds are forever

i was on my way to bed, trying to make a early night for once, and i was just gonna check something on a forum quick and i saw a topic of one thread:

"Syd Barret dead"

i couldn´t believe my eyes, was he really gone? "no, that can´t be true" i thought, and i followed the link and read...i just couldn´t believe it, Syd Barret is gone. i have been a fan of Pink Floyd´s music for a couple of years now and i have listened to Syd Barrett´s solo albums so this felt kinda hard. to loose someone that has inspired so many to do music and other. with Syd Barretts passing away it felt harder than when Kurt Cobain passed away. don´t get me wrong here, i miss Nirvana and i think it´s very sad that we lost Kurt Cobain but i feel that Pink Floyd´s music means more to me than Nirvana´s.

Shine of You crazy Diamond - Roger Keith Syd Barrett 1946 - 2006

Link to the news article on BBC

In Floyd We Trust (Swedish Pink Floyd site)


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The Pirate Bay (TPB) raided

Today, 2006-05-31, the swedish incompetent police raided Rix|Port80 (that´s where The Pirate Bay (TPB) is hosted.

According to the rumors there was around 50 cops there to take away The Pirate Bay server and some other servers that Rix|Port80 hosted.

To me it is unknown how the **** 50 cops can have find the time to raid TPB instead of capturing the criminals that make sweden a unsafe place to be. People in sweden, especially girls/women and older ppl. are afraid to be out late, they get raped, robbed, assaulted, killed and so on. It just don´t happen to older ppl. or women it happens to everyone. The cops say all the time that they don´t have enough to handle everything, to cover for all the crimes...

No wonder they don´t have enough cops to cover it since they are more busy to run around trying to catch ppl. that are downloading. This shows for sure that the big anti-piracy organisations control the cops.

Damn, i get so mad i don´t even know what to write.

Here i quote the message you get when you try to enter The Pirate Bay (TPB) or Piratbyrån (PB):

"In the morning of 2006-05-31 the Swedish National Criminal Police showed a search warrant to Rix|Port80 personnell. The warrant was valid for all datacentres of Rix|Port80 and was directed at The Pirate Bay. The allegation was breach of copy-right law, alternatively assisting breach of copy-right law.

The police officers were allowed access to the rack where the TPB servers and other servers are hosted. All servers in the rack were clearly marked as to which sites run on each. The police took down all servers in the rack, including the non-commercial site Piratbyrån, the mission of which is to defend the rights of TPB via public debate.

According to police officers simultaneously questioning the president of Rix|Port80, the purpose of the search warrant is to take down TPB in order to secure evidence of the allegations mentioned above.

The necessity for securing technical evidence for the existance of a web-service which is fully official, the legality of which has been under public debate for years and whose principals are public persons giving regular press interviews, could not be explained. Asked for other reasoning behind the choice to take down a site, without knowing wether it is illegal or not, the officers explained that this is normal.

The TPB can receive compensation from the Swedish state in case that the upcoming legal processes show that TPB is indeed legal."

Sign this name list to demonstrate for solidarity and to show the discontent over the swedish Antipiratbyråns* and how the cops handled this:
(*Antipiratbyrån is the name of the swedish anti-piracy agency.)

Solidarity for The Pirate Bay

The End? Part III

i wonder how the world would look like if there was no leaders in this world, no politicians, no kings, no presidents, no man or woman higher than the other.

every big decision that had to be made every citizen had a vote. and you could not sell, give away or in other way give your vote to another person.

no persons vote was worth more than someone elses, it didn´t matter if you were a doctor or a cleaner.


i wonder how the world would look like if it was like that...problaby better.


a couple days ago i talked to Nina (a friend / co-worker) about this idea, and we had a really cool discussion about this, and then we started talking about making our own country, and somehow we slipped into a discussion of how you are supposed to raise your children in the best way.

. . . .
for you that wonder aboot me and the girrlfriend...

we haven´t broken up, but she dosen´t know what she wants with us in the future. so yes, i still feel shitty aboot it. but i can´t do anything more than wait i guess.

some ppl. would problaby say that i should "put her up the wall" and ask for an answer but i don´t wanna stress her since she already having a hard time with her life, and i love her too much to loose her.

. . . .
some good news do exist...

the 26th of may i´m going to see The Kristet Utseende live in Gothenburg!! yes, finally i´m going to see them!

i haven´t been listening to them for a long time (discovered them last year), but as soon as i heard the first song i was stuck.

if you like swedish punk-rock with some good lyrics (you have to have a bit of humor to understand) you will problaby like them.

The Kristet Utseende at wikipedia (only in Swedish)

. . . .
bad news again...

my Koss Porta Pro headphones broke down a while ago, so i have been without any portable music for about 1½-2 weeks. it maybe don´t sound so bad but believe me, it is!!

evey travel to and from work nowadays and when i´m going to / from town shopping is kinda boring since i don´t have any music with me.

i have been looking for a new pair of headphones, and via a forum i saw that some ppl. recomended AKG K42P (the yellow ones). so i searched for a store here in Gothenburg to see if anyone had them and found a chain of stores that was supposed to have them...

i went there on sunday and surprise surprise, that store didn´t had them in, and i asked one of the personel to check the other store...nope, they didn´t had them either.

apparently even the big storage was out of stock even, but a couple of stores around gothenburg had them in...but no way i was travelling far to buy these headphones, i don´t even know if they _are_ that good even!

i asked the guy in the store if they could order in a pair for me...but noooo, they weren´t interested in doing such a thing. when i came home i checked the web site of the store again and saw that they had free delivery if you paid with your credit card.

but i thought that i wanted to try them before i buy ´em...and lucky was that i didn´t buy them since i checked my bank account on monday and saw that i had less money than i thought(!!).

and to top all things, this store i was at asking for these headphones are having a great price on them, and of course i can´t buy them now.

*sigh*

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The End? Part II

"I don´t know if i wanna get back togheter anymore"


I had feared that she would say something like that after i got home and we had that serious talk.

But sometime after that talk i noticed a small change and my hopes were getting up a bit...

And today i call her after she tried to reach me at work (i very little free time when i am at work).

So i called her and we talked and after a while she said it, "I don´t know if i wanna get back togheter anymore".


What i felt with her for these almost 2 years, i have never felt with anyone else.


Is this the end for us?? I certainly hope not since she has been my all.

She is my best friend (except my cat), she is (was??) my girlfriend, she is the one i can see myself living with until the end of time.

. . . .

I don´t know how updates will be around this blog, but keep coming here cause i often start thinking about starting blogging again.

my 2:nd trip to Israel ...

i have made a travel blog witch i will try to document my trip to Israel.

you can find it here (it's called 'Jump to Lightspeed).

nn Swedish only, but if you want to see some photos from my trip then hang on since i will try to post as many as i can through that blog.


Jump to Lightspeed

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Amongst Gods and Angels

Presenting the Cosmic messenger:

Kah-Loolie Kathan - The Toaster of God
(a.k.a. Kalleh)

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these pix/pics/photos belong to me.
so don´t copy/save them without my permission.

and don´t directlink/hotlink to these pix/pics/photos
post a link to the post instead.

http://perrah.blogspot.com/2006/02/amongst-gods-and-angels.html


thanks.

Achtung x-mas

Happy Christmas and Good New Year to ye all bloggies!

I know i haven´t been posting much lately, but that is because i have a hectic time in my life right now.

We have alot of work to do and when i come home i´m too tired to update the blog. I just check what i have downloaded and then watch some tv or sometimes game a little bit.

Anyway, i wish you all nice x-mas and if don´t post anything before new years then have a great new years eve too! ^_^

Here´s some pix i took yesterday on the Liseberg (a amusment park in Gothenburg) christmas market with my cell phone (a Sony Ericsson K750i).

Enjoy!

Edit: the pix dosen´t seem to work right now, i will try to fix them as soon as i can





















This last pic says:

"Stand under the mistletoe and kiss someone a little bit"

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linx of interest:

What a Crappy Present - You got the wrong present?? Here´s an idea what to do.

Urban Dictionary - For all your urban dictionary needs ^_-

Borr Magazine - A Swedish humor(?) magazine

...no topic...

On Saturday me and mom where in town to do some shopping and all of a sudden she said:

"Oh, no look!" and she pointed towards some news headliner posted on a kiosk

When i looked i saw that the Swedish comedian Micke "Svullo" Dubios had killed himself.

Very sad, very very sad.

I was a fan of him. But i didn´t had a chance to see all his stuff when it was aired on TV, but i think i he was very funny, you never knew what he was up to.

I still borrow his first CD, from my brother every now and then, "För Fet" with the hit song "För fet för ett fuck" (translated into english: "To fat for a fuck").




Micke "Svullo" Dubios
1959-2005


Ride on Micke, wherever you are. You will be missed but not forgotten.


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"You´re momma ate my dog!!"

"Oh brother I can't, I can't get through
I've been trying hard to reach you, cause I don't know what to
do
Oh brother I can't believe it's true
I'm so scared about the future and I wanna talk to you
Oh I wanna talk to you

You can take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or write a song nobody has sung
Or do something that's never been done

Are you lost or incomplete?
Do you feel like a puzzle, you can't find your missing piece?
Tell me how do you feel?
Well I feel like they're talking in a language I don't speak
And they're talking it to me

So you take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or a write a song nobody has sung
Or do something that's never been done
Do something that's never been done

So you don't know were you're going, and you wanna talk
And you feel like you're going where you've been before
You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored
Nothing's really making any sense at all..."
. . . .
i love rain and thunder, i like rain without thunder and thunder without rain, and i love the lightning most of this...

i don´t know why, but i find rain sometimes really soothing, like balsam for my soul...

and the thunder & lightning is soo cosy.

when i was younger my mom told me not to tease the lightning, i can´t remember what she said would happen if i did, and of course like the curious kid i was i one day when it was thunder and lightning outside i started to tease the lightning...

and suddenly the lightning the lightning struck down not far away from me...i never teased the lightning again, and my respect for the thunder and lightning grew.

since that day i have been very interested in lightning. often when i hear thunder and see the lightning i wanna climb the highest mountain so i can be able to see the lightning better.

. . . .

so what has happened since the last post then, and is this blog dead or what??

well ALOT has happened and NO this blog isn´t dead at all. the problem is just that everytime i´ve tried to post anything i felt

"- Naah, don´t feel like it. I´ll post when i came up with more to write..."


so what has acutally happened since like a month ago (or something like that)...

here´s a quickie:

* mom bought a house and moved in (had to help her out there)

* i finished CoD 2 (Call of Duty 2)

* i´ve been working my ass off (as usual>

* i´ve been helping mom out with her house

* i´ve been trying to fix up a new template for the blog (but no luck)


sure i dosen´t sound like that much, but the time has gone so fast i sometimes wonder what date it is...

as i said i finished CoD 2 (i only played it through once, gonna start again soon but on a higher level).

so what do i think of the game then??

well, CoD 2 is fun to play and the grapichs is really good, but it´s too short and repetive.

on almost every "level"(?) it´s the same;

take over the place the germans have

defend the place you´ve just taken over from the storming germans



ok, the whole game isn´t just taking over and defending the places around, the y have put in some really fun "driving-tank" "levels"

the controls i can´t complain over since i´m able to adjust the buttons as i want (witch i couldn´t in Sniper Elite).

the A.I. (artificial intelligence) of the comrades is good but it could have been better. many times i have died because i have trown a grenade and just the second before a comrade has come up just in front of me and blocking my throw and the grenade ended up bouncing back to me.

the enemies are smarter and use crates and other stuff to hide, and if they get close they can be really dangerous since the like to smash ppl. with the back of the gun.

what i really dislike is the health meter. or should i say the lack of a health meter.

when you get hit the screen goes red, and if you get hit too much the screen goes even more red and a text appears that warns you that you´re getting hit.

it was kinda cool i the beginning but after a while i got tired of it and missed the health meter.

what about online?

Call of Duty 2 online is cool, but i´m disappointed at the maps...they are just re-makes of the old maps. new grapichs and some new stuff, but still come on.

WE WANT NEW MAPS!

but it´s fun to play anywho, and it´s working fine...

. . . .

i re-discovered how good Coldplay and Kanye West is some weeks ago. i downloaded Coldplay´s "X & Y" and Kanye West´s "Late Registration" and have been listening to them almost continusly since then...

defently two albums worth buying when i´m gonna head out to buy cd´s.

. . . .

aah, friday today...feels good, but i´m sooo tired here i can fall alseep on the keyboard... ;- P

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linx of interest:

no, sorry...nothing here.


ps. for those that wonders, the headline "You´re momma ate my dog!!" is from the cool movie Braindead by Peter Jackson, and he is due to release King Kong over us...

The End

and so the end has come to what i believe is one of the best sci-fi stories ever made on film is over.

it started out in 1977, the year i was born and ended in 2005. it lasted for 28 years...

what am i talking about?


Star Wars: Episode 3 - Revenge of the Sith

i saw it tonight, and as many of the other fans had said i say also, this is the best one of the three "new" Star Wars movies that came.

i was worried when i saw "The Phantom Menace", and when i saw "Attack of the clones" i kinda lost interest of "Star Wars" but then last weekend they aired "Attack of the clones" on TV and i sat down and i felt how the force grew back in me.


and now i have finally seen the last episode. i think that George Lucas weaved it all togheter very nicely, and especially the end was good. i was thinking alot of what happened to Anakin Skywalker and how he got into that black outfit.



i quote The Doors:

"This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end"


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welcome to the night

oh crap it happened again...

i was going to blogger to write a new post and i find this blog called "Vardagsfrenesi" and from there i got to another blog called, "Sex & Göteborg" and i forgot what i was gonna write about...

so you'll have to stick with some linx until i can remember what i was gonna write about...

. . . .

btw. i talked to my mom yesterday about the woman that died in her house...she didn't die in the bedroom but in the living room instead (where my had been sleeping).

and she died calmly with her husband near.

i remember when i stepped into the house for the first time, when i came into the bedroom and saw all the pictures he had of her in there. that was really sad, and i couldn't stay there for long.


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other blogs of some interest (at least to me):

A cray momma's blog
Chubby Hubby
Bekännelser i Göteborg



ps. and oh yeah before i forget! a group has stated that they have a mod chip in progress for the PSP...

they are gonna make 100 units that they are gonna sell on e-Bay...

isn't that just stupid...to sell it on e-Bay...i mean, the risk of the "e-Bay" police will just take it away fairly quickly is high...

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i början så var ensamheten värst. efter att ha levt ihop i ett par månader så var man van vid att Hon alltid fanns där.

och nu helt plötsligt så är det så tyst. jag kände att jag höll på att bli galen.

jag visste inte vad jag skulle göra, vad jag skulle ta mig till.

det var enormt jobbigt.

och nu efter att det har gått 3 månader, så är det inte ensamheten som är knäckande, utan den är avsaknaden av sex. jag märker jag att jag börjar att glömma hur det känns att ha sex...tror jag iaf...

och det kommer att dröja ca. ytterligare 3 månader innan jag träffar Henne igen...

och sen efter det tar det 5 månader innan vi kan flytta ihop.

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lately i've had problems watching a whole movie...i have been starting up a movie only to fall asleep or something else come up that i have to do and i shut it off thinking i will finish it later some day but i never do.

yesterday it happened again. i was watching "Fight Club" (for like the fourth time i think) and after a while i shut it off because the grrlfriend called me, and we talked for a while.

after a while i looked at the clock and noticed it was kinda late already and i have a early week this week (that means that i have to get up at like 06.00 in the morning), i knew that i wouldn't be able to watch the whole thing so i just shut it off thinking (again) that i will watch it later.

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this weekend i helped my mom to move into her new house. and my brother was so kind enough to tell her that the place is haunted.

the house was previously owned by a old man and his wife that was said by my brother that she died in the bedroom. the possibility of that she actually died in the house i can believe, but the fact she is haunting the place i don't really believe.


note fyi: i believe that ghosts exists, but i never seen one. i have no idea how i would react if i would actually meet one.


my brother told me that the house was haunted before he told my mom and i asked him not to tell my mom that, but he just said "no, she must now what she has to deal with". and the thing with my mom is that she is very superstitious. she never allowed me to have a cactus when i was younger (and if i get one now she won't visit me), she NEVER leaves the keys on the table and so on...

therefore i thought that telling her that her newly bought house is haunted is very unnecessary and will just frighten her.

and it did.

i told my mom when we were alone that i didn't believe that the place was haunted at all, and she shouldn't believe my brother at all on this.

after we had dinner and the rest was outside to start moving in things again i was alone in the house i said "to the house" that i love my mom very much and i want her to be happy and this is her house now and the house should be nice to her.

i didn't tell my mom, my brother, my uncle or anyone else for that matter what i had said to the house, cause they will only think i am crazy or something.

when we were finished with moving in the stuff my mom said she didn't want to sleep in the sleeping room because it was full of boxes...the real reason as i see it was because she was still afraid. but on sunday i met up with her again and she said she had a dream that a woman had peeked in and said she was very much welcome to the house, and she seemed a bit happier.

maybe the place is haunted, and maybe the house listened to what i said...in any case i just hope the best for my mom now and i wish that she will be happy out there since this has been one of her dreams, to own a house again.

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a while ago i put in Pearl Jam's album "Ten" in the mp3 player and re-discovered how great it is.

no wonder they got big at that time, that album kicks ass! i just wish i had known that earlier so i could have caught a concert with them. they haven't been to Sweden for years...sadly.

favorite song?? ooh, hard...hmm..."Jeremy", "Garden" is so good and "Even Flow" is just some of many good song there.

it's so cool to pick up an album you haven't listened to for a long time and re-discover what was so good about it.

but sometimes you discover that an album you listened to alot wasn't that good after all and you start to wonder why you listened to that band at all...


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Wierd dreams - Tribute to H.P. Lovecraft

the night to wednesday i had a wierd dream again...

i was dreaming i was in Mallorca (i think it was) and there i met a girl there and we "fooled" around...

what does this really mean??

i mean i am going to my grrlfriend in Israel in march 2006, but that´s Israel...and sure i book cars for rent sometimes in Mallorca, but i have never been there and i´m not planning om going there...

when i was going to work today i think i know where i got Mallorca from. i was reading this free newspaper, Metro, yesterday and they had a huge advert about going to Mallorca and those islands around there, so that could have been where i got that from. but where the girl came from, and who she was i have no idea at all!

. . . .

this night i had another wierd dream, but i just can´t remember it good enough to put into words...

maybe all these dreams has to do with i´m started to read H.P. Lovecraft´s books again.

a couple of years ago i read ALOT of books by him and one night i woke up from one of my strange dreams and i just had to draw a picture i had in my head. i knew that if i didn´t do it it just wouldn´t let go.

i still have the picture at home, but i don´t have a scanner so i can´t upload it...

another wierd dream that also has to do with H.P. Lovecraft´s books, is one that i had some years ago too. it was in the same row when i read the books written by Mr. Lovecraft, i was dreaming i was chased by Cthulhu.

i was in a old cabin somewhere (i think in Great Britain somewhere) studying some old books, and all of a sudden i can hear these men screaming, and i look outside and i see them come running down a hill with torches in their hands.

i felt that something was terribly wrong and suddely i saw something moving, i couldn´t tell what it was but i felt the evil so i started running away too.

i looked behind me and i saw Cthulhu...


and that´s where i don´t remember anymore of the dream. i have no idea if i managed to escape Cthulhu or not...but i was so scared by the dream that i stopped reading Lovecraft for many years.

but i never stopped wondering about the dream, was it a warning to me to stop before i become mad just like the people in Lovecrafts books?

i never stopped wanting to read his books either since i think he´s one of the best horror writers out there.

and now i have got back to read his books again...

so we´ll see if Cthulhu or the other gods that shouldn´t be named will appear in my dreams...

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everyday before i log into Blogger i check out some blogs that Blogger annouces that has been recently updated.

sometimes i find some interesting blogs to read and sometimes not...today i have been blog surfing again (as usual) and found some interesting blogs that will try to check out more and follow, you can find them in the linx of interest section at the end of todays entry.

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today i got 2 funny sms messages from my grrlfriend:

She: "I love you so much, it´s not even funny" - i found this quite funny, and still do.

Me: "Well, what can i say? Oy vei!"

She: "When did you become so Jewish?" ^_^


well, don´t have much else to say now. waiting for Call of Duty 2 to be released...and while i´m doing that i´m playing Sniper Elite, watch tv & work...


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linx of interest:

same shit, different day - Swedish blog

destination: moon!

Shadowcasted Realities

HyperLiterature