2.5 - 06:57

Today when I was at my moms to eat dinner, we also watched a movie, this time it was the excellent "The butterfly effect".

The last time I saw it I felt a bit down, I guess it's because it reminds me of that I want to go back and change so much in my past but it can't never be done. I started to think again about what I would like to change the most...

I thought a while about it and figured out that if I could go back and change something I would changed Danielas (my ex. girlfriends) life. I would have changed so she would be a more happy person, without those dark thoughts inside her that she has about life, and how unhappy she was (and still are...?).

She told me that her mom wasn't like other moms when she grew up (and still isn't), you know like hugging you and mom stuff like that. And she also told me that she considered to take her life, she even tried a couple of times. Her old boyfriends and friends have hurt her al lot and have given her deep scars, and a lot of other stuff that made her life miserable.

Changing the past and Danielas life would have meant that we probably would never have met and get to know each other, but if I knew that Daniela lived her life happily it would have been worth it. It's not that I regret the time I got with Daniela, I love her a lot and miss her very very much and I think about her all the time and I often dream back to the times when we were together here in Sweden or in Israel. She showed me a world I didn't knew anything about and gave me a lot of fun moments in life that I will always will remember with a lot of warmth.

But it hurts me so much to see and hear that she is unhappy, she is a very wonderful person that deserves so much, much much more than she even thinks she deserves.

Dani, this post is for you.


I know we haven't talked much lately, I hope you are doing fine with school and all the jobs you have.

I also hope that you have time to be with your friends Matan, Lookshine, Rotem, Noga & Genie, Ravit, Arbel, Jack and all the other ppl.

I miss you and I hope you haven't totally forgotten about me and that you're coming here to Sweden soon.

I know I have said a while ago that the next Desperate Housewives DVD was finished, but I noticed when I tried it that it didn't work out as good as I wanted it, so I have to redo everything. I'm really sorry about that.

But you know PC´s, one day they work the next day they won't. But now I have a new fresh installation of Win. XP on my computer and gonna get to work, and if everything works out I'll do the Green Wing DVDs too, as I promised.


Ani ohev af toot.

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