Life in general:
Yesterday on my way from work I started to think when people passed me that life is pretty meaningless. I mean, we get born and from that day we travel to our end in at a high speed.
Our parents (or the one that gives us food and clothes) try to learn from the early stages what is right and what is wrong accoring to their standards. When we are old enough we start going to school to "learn" about the world and all around it. After many years in the school we are released from it and are supposed to make it on our own now. Some people continue to higher education and others start to work.
Some point in life we stop going to school and have to start working. And the point of work is to make enough money so we can eat and buy new clothes to us, but we like money so much so the point has become to earn so much money that we never can spend it all in our lifetime. We like to own stuff and we don't care witch foots we step on or who we have to kill to earn more money.
And some people happily kill other people go get more power or more money so they can buy more stuff or store the money in some bank or stocks or whatever. If that's not enough we kill the earth and the animals too. The earth that provides us with some place to live, and we kill all the animals without hesitation just so we can have clothes and food. Killing the animals for food is one thing, but what we people do is we kill them without thinking ahead and we have already made some species extinct.
Back to the work thing, we work our ass off all our life hoping to be able to kick back and enjoy the last years of our lives. But the fact is that many of us never get to enjoy those last years so much because of a little thing called money (yes, that old foe is here again to make a mess), and health. Naturally when people grow up we get sick and that happens all the time and the people with money can go to the doctor and those without can only hope it's nothing serious and that it will go away by itself.
So when the people without money get old they don't have that much to live off and get ill then can severly hurt their economy and even sometimes can hurt themselves severly when they can't afford the medical treatment.
The words are so familiar -
all the same greats, the same mistakes
It doesn't have to be like this.
Religion:
Some people believe that there are higher god(s) that we should put our faith in, and this is also very meaningless and it has through time often been the reason of wars (other reasons is money, love and power). Some people say that they kill in the name of their god, what kind of bullshit is that? I don't think it says in the religious books that "And thy God said to thee that thy shalt kill all that are against thee" or similar. No, people tend to read between the lines and interpret they way they want to.
A good example of this is the Christian religion. According to the christians homosexual people are wrong, that God said that it was meant that a man and a woman should live togheter, not two people of the same sex. What the hell is wrong with people?! If I should fall in love with someone and that person happens to be of the same sex that is no ones affair, and people should keep their nose out of my love life.
Or another good example of when religion went crazy is when a danish magazine printed some pictures of Muhammad (link to Wikipedia article.). Just because some cartoonists made some pictures of some religious guy the whole muslim world gets all crazy and wanted to open a can of whop ass (to say the least) on the whole danish country and their people. Sweden and norway got drawn into this heap of bullshit too.
I get so sick of this religion crap sometimes, people do this, people do that i the name of their god(s). That is just a heap of bullshit, you can't put a god responsible for your actions, it's only you and your leader that is responsible for your actions.
Sure some people find comfort and help through life with religion and that's good and all, but when it goes over their heads like in the examples i gave above it's just too much.
So in the end money, religion and love are the big evil corporations in life.
If you don't make a friend, now
One might make you -
So learn
The gentle art of making enemies
Don't look so surprised
Happy birthday...Fucker
Blow that candle out,
We're gonna kick you
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All accounted for
Marked sheep, sold
Matched and numbered, weak
Downsized, uptight
It's about time
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When I woke up this morning I was sure it's thursday. I went to the shower and later sat down to have my usual breakfast and turned the radio on. After a while someone on the radio said something and said the word "today on this friday", and I thought "heey, someone is confused, it's thursday today".
I went to the tram and came to work, and my first call today someone wanted to rent a car:
"- Hi, i want to rent a car from today and a week forward." The customer said.
"- Ok, no problem. From today, thursday and a week forward."
"- Umm, it's friday today."
"- Is it?"
...after that call I had to ask a couple of my co-workers what day it was and they all said it was friday. I was really confused, what the hell happened to thursday??
. . . .
Stop making speeches
We can't hear you
From the bunker bed
It's not like the movies,
Where hatred made clearer sense
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Weekend again, and as usual I have no idea what i'm gonna do this weekend...sometimes I just feel like taking a random train and get away for a while.
Maybe I should fix my bike and go for that bike ride I have been thinking of for so long. The weather has started to be kinda nice now. The snow has melted away, too bad it's still a bit cold, and now when i'm writing this it's raining outside...
. . . .
This time around
Grey sharks. Down
Betrayed for personal wealth
Twelve feet under ground
It's about time
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Tonight i'm thinking of watching El Laberinto del Fauno (also called Pan's Labyrinth), heard from a co-worker it's supposed to be pretty good. But also go a hold a new game, "Sherlock Holmes - The Awakened", that i wanna try out.
Well, now i'm gonna get my ass out of Compton (work that is) and get some food and get home to my castle.
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Ps. In case someone wonders the text bits in italic is from a Khoma song called "Stop making speeches".
Today i got to think that it's been over 1 year since i was in Israel (see my blog Jump to Lightspeed for more info). This time a year ago i was in Eilat and had a good time...
I was together with Daniela and we were still a couple and at home the Loolie Kathan was waiting for me.
One year...it hasn't been a good year since i left Israel. When i came home Daniela wanted to take a break (witch usually means "i want to break up") and my friend (the Loolie Kathan) since over 20 years back went away.
I dated a girl a couple of weeks ago, i thought i had moved on and got over Daniela, but i now know that i haven't. When i was with Daniela i had the best time in my life. She made me more confident and sure of my self, she made me happy...
When we called each other we could talk easily for about 40-50 mins. (we used to call each other around 3-5 times a week), but nowadays we hardly speak at all. If i'm lucky we talk for about 5-10 mins. 1-2 times a week.
I miss so much the times we used to have, i miss her...she is the best girlfriend i ever had...
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Recently i have been starting to think really much if i am gonna go back to studies again. I need to get away from this crappy job i have now. I won't go anywhere with this job, it feels like I'm running in circles.
I HAVE TO GET AWAY FROM THIS SHIT!
I want to be a photographer, not like a photographer who takes cheesy pictures of weddings and that crap, no i dream more of being a rock concert photographer or be in the front line taking photos of war, happiness, poverty and stuff like that.
The thing is that if i'm gonna go study i want to concentrate on that full time, and i don't want a part-time job. I think this might be a bit difficult but i have to check if i can take a student loan and how much i have to pay back and all that around it...
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And at the gaming side of life i haven't been gaming that much, well i'm still stuck in Final Fantasy VI Advance, and recently i have been addicted to Underground Pool (in europe it's called Actua Pool). IGN gave it a really bad review points and sure it's not a very good game, but if you look beyond that and you're bored when you're at the loo it's working.
I have downloaded some other games i'm gonna try out, but i just need the right motivation...and time of course.
Last weekend i installed Call of Duty 2 (CoD 2) again, but my old-new graphics card (i don't know the name right now) can't handle all the fun graphics (like smoke and stuff) that good so sometimes it lags a bit. But still it's good to be back.
I have also checked with the CoD clan i used to game with if they are still active and it seems so, so maybe i'll throw myself out there in the online gaming once again.
It wouldn't hurt to have a more powerful computer and grapichs card...but right now i can't afford the 8-9000 skr i need to buy me a new PC.
:-(
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As i wrote in my previous post (2.0) i was going to a Cult of Luna concert and hopefully Eagles of Death Metal.
Cult of Luna concert was AWESOME! They were as good as i hoped them to be. I have some photos i took at home, i'll see if i can get my ass up and upload them somewhere...
Before the concert i talked to two guys at the bar, at first they seemed like two cool guys with a foot in the music business, but after a while i just noticed that they were talking shit...here some examples:
"- Last time we played on Rock am Ring we were set up to play on the smallest stage at a pretty bad time. But after a while we got to know that the band that was going to play between HIM and Slipknot cancelled so we got to go up between HIM and Slipknot on the largest stage. We went from the smallest stage to the biggest between those bands."
Suuure you got play between HIM and Slipknot, and suuure you got promoted from the smallest stage to the biggest...
And here's the worst:
"- You know who Max Cavalera is right?" (One of the guys asked me)
"- Of course."
"- Like 3 years ago i sent him a demo CD, and last week he called me and said that he could produce my album if put down a guitar solo on his new album..."
Yeah riiight, Max Cavalera called you...here i felt i had to get away and luckily some guy came and started to talk to them so i could sneak away.
I never went to Eagles of Death Metal in the end, i thought a friend of mine would hopefully fix something so we could get in, but she never did.
And next friday (the 16:th) i The Kristet Utseende to go to...
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