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i miss Israel...


lately i have been starting to think back to it more and more...especially when i am travelling to and from work, or to and from town. when i see cars that look a bit rundown or special looking buildings i start to think about it, and its hard to get out of those thoughts. it´s not that i want to forget it´s just that it sometimes hurts to remember. i think back to all that i and Dani and her friends have been doing when i was there, what i saw and felt. i know Israel isn´t the safest place to live right now, but i still miss the place.

maybe it´s because i have Dani there, and she´s the first girl i really loved. the first girlfriend i felt that i could tell anything too and that i could trust all the way. i had never felt that with any of my previous girlfriends.

. . . .

this night i had another of those wierd dreams...

this time i was in a house i had recently bought (!!), it had belonged to my mom but se sold it because she thought it was haunted (why i bought it in the first place i don´t know). my mom was going around helping me set up the curtains and unpacking my stuff. i really didn´t want to live there, and i certainly didn´t want to sleep there since i believed that it was haunted.

i asked my mom several times why i bought it and if i made a bad choice buying the house to begin with, but she didn´t answer.


that´s all i can remember. i often think of getting me a book that can help you "translate" your dreams, but you can never know if that what says in the book is what the dream is trying to tell you.
but at the same time it would be interesting to read...

. . . .

today the Gothenburg city festival start, this year it´s togheter with the EM (european championships). ALOT of ppl. are coming here and there´s gonna be some good artists too, i don´t care about the sports i go for the music. here´s a list of artists performing:

04 Aug

I´m from Barcelona (SWE)
Hello Saferide (SWE)
The Soundtrack of our lives (T.S.O.O.L.) (SWE)

05 Aug

The Hellacopters (SWE)
Backyard Babies (SWE)
Millencolin (SWE)

06 Aug

Eskobar (SWE)
Slagsmålsklubben (SWE)

07 Aug

No fun at all (SWE)
Blindside (SWE)
Satanic Surfers (SWE)

08 Aug

Arch Enemy (SWE/UK)
Nine (SWE)

09 Aug

Snook (SWE)
Technics Swedish DJ Championship (DJ-SM)
GBG Grime Bash:
- Max Peezay, Jammer & Ears (UK)
- Wiley & Scratchy (UK)
- Slix & Tinchy Stryder (UK)
- DJ Karnage (UK)
- NFL Kru - Slim, D-Chi & Double K (?)

10 Aug

The twilight singers feat. Greg Dulli & Mark Lanegan (US)

12 Aug

Looptroop (SWE)

(i underlined the bands i want to see the most)

i dont think i will make it to see all of them, i have a job to go to (yeah, it sucks i know) and i can´t be up all night. especially since i start out early next week.

... ah well ...

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just another day

i have been thinking many times of moving back to norrland (the upper parts of Sweden where i grew up) again since i miss it...but a couple of days ago i realised why i want to move up again, it´s because i miss the old days when i lived up there and was with my old friends and all that, but the thing is that even if move up again it won´t be the same.

some of my old friends has moved out of town, or got a family. so it just wont be the same anymore, sad but true. i often think back to the old days, when i lived up there in that small town...i often remember it as happy days, and i had many many good times up there, but i must not forget that i was unemployed and most of the time i didn´t had any money because of that and i was often depressed.

. . . .

so...saturday today, the clock is about 13.50 and the only plan i had has gone to the trashbin. i was thinking of putting in my mountain bike for service, but the store close at 14.00.

why didn´t i go then? well, to make a unneccesary long story short:

i woke up too late...

what?? you want the long story...oh...hmm, well ok, here goes:

it started with yesterday after i got home a friend of mine asked me if i wanted to come and see "Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead mans chest" and i got home around 01.30 and of course i got stuck infront of the computer again when i got home and didn´t got to bed until around 05.00. i had set the clock for about 10.40 but as always i forgot to turn the bloody alarm on.

*sigh*

so i woke up at around 12.40 instead...that wasn´t too bad since i needed to sleep. i had temporarily forgot about the plan i had for today so i sat down and checked my e-mail and stuff and then i remembered and i had to find out when the store closed for the day. i managed with Google´s help find the site of the store and saw that they close at 14.00...when i saw that the clock was around 13.20 already.


so what to do now?? i have no idea...i think of eating some breakfast since i´m getting very hungry here...

*makes some sandwiches*

aah, that´s better. and i now came up with what i´m gonna do now...clean the apartment. i really need to do it, boring yes. but i have to since no one else will.

. . . .

i have been looking for a new game to play...either on Windows or on PS2. i have been playing War Rock a while now, and i´m getting bored with it. i also started to play Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas again. that game is fun, but games these days have a hard time keeping my intrest up for more than 2-4 weeks of constant playing (well i do need to go to work and have other stuff to do, but you know what i mean). so i hope something cool hits the stores soon.

but one problem still exists if it´s for Windows...i can´t play those highly demanding games since my PC hasn´t been upgraded yet.


well, that´s it for this post. i´m gonna eat up the rest of my breakfast and then go and clean my apartment and maybe later play some GTA: SA.


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Diamonds are forever

i was on my way to bed, trying to make a early night for once, and i was just gonna check something on a forum quick and i saw a topic of one thread:

"Syd Barret dead"

i couldn´t believe my eyes, was he really gone? "no, that can´t be true" i thought, and i followed the link and read...i just couldn´t believe it, Syd Barret is gone. i have been a fan of Pink Floyd´s music for a couple of years now and i have listened to Syd Barrett´s solo albums so this felt kinda hard. to loose someone that has inspired so many to do music and other. with Syd Barretts passing away it felt harder than when Kurt Cobain passed away. don´t get me wrong here, i miss Nirvana and i think it´s very sad that we lost Kurt Cobain but i feel that Pink Floyd´s music means more to me than Nirvana´s.

Shine of You crazy Diamond - Roger Keith Syd Barrett 1946 - 2006

Link to the news article on BBC

In Floyd We Trust (Swedish Pink Floyd site)


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The Pirate Bay (TPB) raided

Today, 2006-05-31, the swedish incompetent police raided Rix|Port80 (that´s where The Pirate Bay (TPB) is hosted.

According to the rumors there was around 50 cops there to take away The Pirate Bay server and some other servers that Rix|Port80 hosted.

To me it is unknown how the **** 50 cops can have find the time to raid TPB instead of capturing the criminals that make sweden a unsafe place to be. People in sweden, especially girls/women and older ppl. are afraid to be out late, they get raped, robbed, assaulted, killed and so on. It just don´t happen to older ppl. or women it happens to everyone. The cops say all the time that they don´t have enough to handle everything, to cover for all the crimes...

No wonder they don´t have enough cops to cover it since they are more busy to run around trying to catch ppl. that are downloading. This shows for sure that the big anti-piracy organisations control the cops.

Damn, i get so mad i don´t even know what to write.

Here i quote the message you get when you try to enter The Pirate Bay (TPB) or Piratbyrån (PB):

"In the morning of 2006-05-31 the Swedish National Criminal Police showed a search warrant to Rix|Port80 personnell. The warrant was valid for all datacentres of Rix|Port80 and was directed at The Pirate Bay. The allegation was breach of copy-right law, alternatively assisting breach of copy-right law.

The police officers were allowed access to the rack where the TPB servers and other servers are hosted. All servers in the rack were clearly marked as to which sites run on each. The police took down all servers in the rack, including the non-commercial site Piratbyrån, the mission of which is to defend the rights of TPB via public debate.

According to police officers simultaneously questioning the president of Rix|Port80, the purpose of the search warrant is to take down TPB in order to secure evidence of the allegations mentioned above.

The necessity for securing technical evidence for the existance of a web-service which is fully official, the legality of which has been under public debate for years and whose principals are public persons giving regular press interviews, could not be explained. Asked for other reasoning behind the choice to take down a site, without knowing wether it is illegal or not, the officers explained that this is normal.

The TPB can receive compensation from the Swedish state in case that the upcoming legal processes show that TPB is indeed legal."

Sign this name list to demonstrate for solidarity and to show the discontent over the swedish Antipiratbyråns* and how the cops handled this:
(*Antipiratbyrån is the name of the swedish anti-piracy agency.)

Solidarity for The Pirate Bay

The End? Part III

i wonder how the world would look like if there was no leaders in this world, no politicians, no kings, no presidents, no man or woman higher than the other.

every big decision that had to be made every citizen had a vote. and you could not sell, give away or in other way give your vote to another person.

no persons vote was worth more than someone elses, it didn´t matter if you were a doctor or a cleaner.


i wonder how the world would look like if it was like that...problaby better.


a couple days ago i talked to Nina (a friend / co-worker) about this idea, and we had a really cool discussion about this, and then we started talking about making our own country, and somehow we slipped into a discussion of how you are supposed to raise your children in the best way.

. . . .
for you that wonder aboot me and the girrlfriend...

we haven´t broken up, but she dosen´t know what she wants with us in the future. so yes, i still feel shitty aboot it. but i can´t do anything more than wait i guess.

some ppl. would problaby say that i should "put her up the wall" and ask for an answer but i don´t wanna stress her since she already having a hard time with her life, and i love her too much to loose her.

. . . .
some good news do exist...

the 26th of may i´m going to see The Kristet Utseende live in Gothenburg!! yes, finally i´m going to see them!

i haven´t been listening to them for a long time (discovered them last year), but as soon as i heard the first song i was stuck.

if you like swedish punk-rock with some good lyrics (you have to have a bit of humor to understand) you will problaby like them.

The Kristet Utseende at wikipedia (only in Swedish)

. . . .
bad news again...

my Koss Porta Pro headphones broke down a while ago, so i have been without any portable music for about 1½-2 weeks. it maybe don´t sound so bad but believe me, it is!!

evey travel to and from work nowadays and when i´m going to / from town shopping is kinda boring since i don´t have any music with me.

i have been looking for a new pair of headphones, and via a forum i saw that some ppl. recomended AKG K42P (the yellow ones). so i searched for a store here in Gothenburg to see if anyone had them and found a chain of stores that was supposed to have them...

i went there on sunday and surprise surprise, that store didn´t had them in, and i asked one of the personel to check the other store...nope, they didn´t had them either.

apparently even the big storage was out of stock even, but a couple of stores around gothenburg had them in...but no way i was travelling far to buy these headphones, i don´t even know if they _are_ that good even!

i asked the guy in the store if they could order in a pair for me...but noooo, they weren´t interested in doing such a thing. when i came home i checked the web site of the store again and saw that they had free delivery if you paid with your credit card.

but i thought that i wanted to try them before i buy ´em...and lucky was that i didn´t buy them since i checked my bank account on monday and saw that i had less money than i thought(!!).

and to top all things, this store i was at asking for these headphones are having a great price on them, and of course i can´t buy them now.

*sigh*

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The End? Part II

"I don´t know if i wanna get back togheter anymore"


I had feared that she would say something like that after i got home and we had that serious talk.

But sometime after that talk i noticed a small change and my hopes were getting up a bit...

And today i call her after she tried to reach me at work (i very little free time when i am at work).

So i called her and we talked and after a while she said it, "I don´t know if i wanna get back togheter anymore".


What i felt with her for these almost 2 years, i have never felt with anyone else.


Is this the end for us?? I certainly hope not since she has been my all.

She is my best friend (except my cat), she is (was??) my girlfriend, she is the one i can see myself living with until the end of time.

. . . .

I don´t know how updates will be around this blog, but keep coming here cause i often start thinking about starting blogging again.

my 2:nd trip to Israel ...

i have made a travel blog witch i will try to document my trip to Israel.

you can find it here (it's called 'Jump to Lightspeed).

nn Swedish only, but if you want to see some photos from my trip then hang on since i will try to post as many as i can through that blog.


Jump to Lightspeed

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Amongst Gods and Angels

Presenting the Cosmic messenger:

Kah-Loolie Kathan - The Toaster of God
(a.k.a. Kalleh)

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these pix/pics/photos belong to me.
so don´t copy/save them without my permission.

and don´t directlink/hotlink to these pix/pics/photos
post a link to the post instead.

http://perrah.blogspot.com/2006/02/amongst-gods-and-angels.html


thanks.